“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” Psalms 139:14

I feel it's a constant battle to claim my identity- to claim that I am loved, beautiful, saved, and forgiven. It's easy to compare, contrast, & scrutinize. But what really keeps me grounded is reading God's word, especially Psalms 139. I first read this Psalm at a girl's Bible study at CC. I often bring this passage up when I'm at my most insecure moment and it never cease to bring me to tears-giving me solace and comfort.

I remember the last time I felt so incredibly insecure was at a Christian camp. It was lovely conference filled with  great workshops, amazing worship, and reunion with old friends. Despite it all, my heart was not in the right place. I was surrounded by inspiring, God loving people, yet, I didn't feel "good" enough. During the first nights we were there, I remember leaving the worship, and my automatic response was opening the Bible to Psalm 139. It was so powerful to read the words out loud. I continued to repeat the words "fearfully and wonderfully made." I wanted a greater understanding of what this meant. How are we feared? Wonderful? An online resource states "Every aspect of the body, down to the tiniest microscopic cell, reveals that it is fearfully and wonderfully made."  It refers to our physical anatomy and physiology that is fearfully and wonderfully made but I also believe it is so much more. It is the spirit and the soul within us. Where each of us holds that unique, adored, & special aspect.

I pray I never forget who I am, as the daughter of the creator. Who "knitted me in my mother's womb." To be joyous in how He created me. 

"There are two mistakes one can make along the road to truth…not going all the way, and not starting."

I was inspired and encouraged through a close friend to start a blog. I don't know what I'm doing and in honesty, I'm an awful writer, my life is not very interesting, I have a hard time finding the right words, I'm impatient, I'm incredibility indecisive so every sentence takes me forever, BUT I'm going to give this a shot=)

Shake-Shine-Flutter

Silly as it may sound, these three words are a continuous reminder of my faith in Jesus. Jesus calls us to be the salt of the earth (Matt. 5). And where is salt found? In the salt shaker, duh! Definitely not in the ocean... plus ocean-shine-flutter sounds weird. We are also created to be the light of the world (John 8)- to illuminate, radiate and shine God's love. Finally we must flutter- to have a continue hunger to share His love. At Revolution, Al, the last director, shared with us the life of a Caterpillar. I think everyone is familiar with the metamorphosis story but before a caterpillar undergoes this change, they are constantly eating. In this time, that is all they really can do. Their focus is on their own need for food. But after their physical transformation, their focus also transforms. They go from trying to satisfy their hungry to trying to reproduce. It sounds a bit odd but stay with me. =) In translating this into my walk with God. I wan't to be in a place where I can get away from me-me-me , but to follow Jesus' great commission- I want to multiply!

I pray God will continue to show me how I should live, to give me the words, and continues to be my inspiration.