“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” Psalms 139:14

I feel it's a constant battle to claim my identity- to claim that I am loved, beautiful, saved, and forgiven. It's easy to compare, contrast, & scrutinize. But what really keeps me grounded is reading God's word, especially Psalms 139. I first read this Psalm at a girl's Bible study at CC. I often bring this passage up when I'm at my most insecure moment and it never cease to bring me to tears-giving me solace and comfort.

I remember the last time I felt so incredibly insecure was at a Christian camp. It was lovely conference filled with  great workshops, amazing worship, and reunion with old friends. Despite it all, my heart was not in the right place. I was surrounded by inspiring, God loving people, yet, I didn't feel "good" enough. During the first nights we were there, I remember leaving the worship, and my automatic response was opening the Bible to Psalm 139. It was so powerful to read the words out loud. I continued to repeat the words "fearfully and wonderfully made." I wanted a greater understanding of what this meant. How are we feared? Wonderful? An online resource states "Every aspect of the body, down to the tiniest microscopic cell, reveals that it is fearfully and wonderfully made."  It refers to our physical anatomy and physiology that is fearfully and wonderfully made but I also believe it is so much more. It is the spirit and the soul within us. Where each of us holds that unique, adored, & special aspect.

I pray I never forget who I am, as the daughter of the creator. Who "knitted me in my mother's womb." To be joyous in how He created me.